Offically Done

I just wanted to say that i have never done this other than on myspace..but now i am going to just let it all out. My causins GF who is very sweet showed me to this website and let me know that it is okay to be happy.

I recently decided that it was time for me to become my own person agian, I dont know who i am or what i am like with out a man. I have been married for over a little then 2 years. Yes i know what your thinking only 2 years and already going to get divorced. When you know that your with someone who you are beginning to hate you cant help but want to move on and get out.

I am 24, working my butt off to support my 2 amazing kids. I never thought that i would be able to be a single mom. Until recently. Im always alone with my kids. My ex only thinks about himself and what he can do to make his life better. Talks down to me like I am a ignorant child. I do not have a very long temeper fuse..I would lose my temper when he would treat me like that. My children mean far to much for me to make them see that stuff. I have family and friends that will always ask me..Why are you with him??? you can do so much better.

I would sit and think to myself why would i want to leave him when i love him well the whole time ive been lieing to myslef. I love that someoene is there and i am not alone. I know know that i was alone for a good portion of my marriage. I lost my best friend that i ever had while i was married and all i ever wanted to do was talk to her. She had been my friend since we where in the 4th grade. she knew when something wasnt right and she would tell me that i needed to get out. and yet i didnt listen and lost her as a friend. It eventually came to that all i needed to do was just call her and tell her how i felt and everything would be okay.

I know that in my life there are alwyas going to be guys that hurt you. but i never thought that i would marry the first guy that i thought that i was totally and completey head over heals for. Yes we had our very very good times then we had are not so good times. and after a while there was more and more not so good times. I just needed a way to become myself agian. and i fianlly took a stand for my life and my kids life!!!

I have many supportive ppl in my life and all i want is to be happy!

O yeah and thanks mel!!!! your the best!